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Hello, hello and welcome back to another episode of Back to Here with Sarita, the new Manifesting Paradigm podcast. As you can see, if you're watching this on YouTube, that I am in person here with the amazing Lua. So if you are watching or listening to this on Apple or Spotify, I highly recommend you navigate yourself over to YouTube so you can see this amazing video podcast that we have today because
The beauty of this and the magic of this is that we put this together very last minute. I'm here in the Angel Palace because I was actually doing a spiritual retreat and Lua was the amazing, beautiful facilitator for this.
This is my second time coming to the Angel Palace. As you can see, we have a beautiful background, really, really nice. And today we're going to be talking about my journey that I've had here. And I just literally had it yesterday. So the reason we're doing this podcast today is number one, taking advantage of being able to have Louis energy in the podcast in person, not just over as like a Riverside zoom call as I usually do. And also because the memories are very fresh in my mind and my body of the things that I went through.
just the other day with my journey with combo and Sananga and a psychedelic amazing ceremony that I had. So welcome Lua.
Thank you so much Sarita for having me. Hello everyone. It is such an honor to be creating this with you here at the Angel Palace, Sarita, because that's really our passion is production. We have my husband Royal Taj supporting us with everything. So this is super magical to be able to celebrate this beautiful day we just had these last few days and to share the magic with you.
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Yay! And this is, I was just saying earlier, this is a dream come true for me. I've said this before in my podcast that this has been a dream of mine for a long time to actually have a talk show of sorts, like a traveling talk show where I'm able to sit here and talk to the other person in, like, with the energy and I've only done this one other time.
So this is super magical that we are doing this after such a great initiation that I just had yesterday. So this means everything to me that we just were like, hey, let's just record it here. Now let's make it happen. It's all happening.
happening at talk show. You're the first guest. Yay.
And you're the, this is the first guest post my initiation. to catch you up to speed, I have, and I've kind of shared this on my social media. If you're following me at study to wellness, you will know that I've been talking about being nomadic for a little while. And I tried and tested this out when I was in Washington, DC in December. And so now I've decided to go completely nomadic altogether. And it is my.
been my dream for a long time to just put everything in my car literally and drive around the whole United States and have this amazing journey where I just go and work virtually and here I am starting this journey. this past week I packed up everything that I own, put some in storage and put some in
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my car and my bare essentials in the car and I started my nomadic journey and I thought what a better way to basically cleanse and clear myself from the things that I was experiencing in San Diego for those last 20 some years and then cleansing my vessel to be open to receive for the next step and I downloaded and it just came as a light bulb moment. Go check in with Lua and make sure that you do a retreat with her.
because she's the perfect person to not only facilitate but also understand transitions. So this whole episode is really going to support you in those moments when you have these big transitions in your life. So we'll be going a little bit deeper on how that has supported me and I'm hopeful that it'll support you as well. So we'll get into all that but first let's talk about Lua and as you know from the introduction I gave you a little intro but I always love hearing from the source. Lua.
Tell us a little bit about what you do and how you got here. I know it's a wonderful, amazing story.
So I'm from Brazil. I'm from Sao Paulo state in Brazil. I was born and raised there. I moved to America 12 years ago. So now I live in Los Angeles, California. If you're in LA, say hi. And I'm a ceremony facilitator.
That's my main role. also work with integration, supporting healers, spaceholders, artists, spiritual, I call the spiritual warriors because it's definitely not for everyone to want to enter the world of medicine, ceremony, psychedelics in a good way. People that really want to take this path for healing, for expansion, for spiritual connection to want to be better people.
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because that's really what these plants have done with me. And in my path, I come from a background that all I wanted to do when I was a teenager was to do drugs and go to raves. I had no connection. I didn't believe in anything. I was quite in the void of life, not really happy with myself.
I was grumpy. I had a eating disorder. I didn't eat anything pretty much, just McDonald's and Coca-Cola. And I also had a body dysmorphia. I didn't love myself. I was a ballerina. So my image of myself was very heavy and I was taking laxatives to lose weight. I was all in this ballerina complex style and plant medicines changed my life. As I was doing psychedelics in these raves one day,
I had a spiritual awakening and I consider myself saved by an indigenous person. beautiful. So this man showed me all the ways and I got to really experience God for the first time through a whole bad trip that has become an enormous path of transition that I knew I was never going to be the same. And since then my life has changed so much and I feel like I, wow, I healed so much and completely transformed who I am.
I'm like vegan now. teach people how to eat healthy and how to fast. It's like incredible. And even I am a dance teacher now. I teach sexy partner dance.
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Transformation is so powerful. So my path is really to support others to enter this world in a good way because it's so complex and the psychedelic movement now is growing. More people are seeking for healing, for holistic healings and wanting to discover the world of psychedelic and pill medicines. And there's a lot of harm just like in anywhere in the world that we must really bring the culture, the traditions, the wisdom to these people to
be able to have an experience like you did and leave here feeling fully complete and feeling like you have full reverence for the medicines, for the prayers and for the transformation and the healing you got to experience. I'm celebrating you Saritha.
That's amazing. Lua, returning person that's come back again for my transformation here. So this is in congruency with my episode 48 where I originally talked about my Kambo and Hapé journey. If you want to go back and listen to that or watch that, that's episode 48. So that was back in October of last year that I was here.
doing a transformational journey. And so it was a little bit longer of a process. It was a full detox, just like what Lou was talking about, like eating vegan and detoxing. I went through a pretty aggressive detoxing before I went through the combo ceremony, which was a three day ceremony. And as I said in the episode, I had no idea what I was getting myself into. I trusted my friend that brought me to here, brought me here. And I just knew when I walked into the Angel Palace that this was my home.
that I felt so at peace. It was like I had been here before. just, it's always a really nice feeling when you know that you feel secure and safe. And that's really important to you. I know as a person that shares all of this with everybody, know, the community that you have created, that's really important, the safety aspect and the education. So I really appreciate that. So here I am again, about seven some months later doing this.
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And so let's talk about, so let's talk about a little bit more about what my personal experience was in this process. So it was wonderful because my first experience was in a group setting, right? So there was a good number of people in the group setting. So I got to experience it as a community and it's so nice cause it's like, I was able to have it now as a one-in-one session. So it's kind of like my coaching where.
You can be part of a group coaching program or you can do a solo. So it's like, whatever is, you have those both sides of the coin experience, which I, which I had, and I have to say both of their amazing and the one-in-one was just so special because I got Lua's undivided attention and support and help and, and all that. And I just felt so, just so at peace and so present with, with everything.
that was going on and I'm not saying I didn't experience that with the group but just energetically like you were saying it's just a different process when you're in a group. Let's talk about what exactly I did. I did the medicines shared before in my episode 48. I did combo, hape, and sananga. So if you want to know more about those I would definitely suggest you go back to episode 48 because I definitely dive a lot more into what those specifically are. So this
This time we're just going to be talking about the whole process and experience on this. When we first got together in person and I was sharing with you in voice notes, my intention for this, I love that you had already journal prompts for me. So it wasn't as though we just jumped into the process. We jumped into the medicine. Like it was very, very intentional and I really love that you do that for people. did that for me when I was going through that and sharing with you.
my intentions for it. I felt very supported in that. And I love the questions you were asking me. Like, what do you see yourself like experiencing? What are you letting go? What are you wanting to? I think the question was, what do you, not just releasing, it was very supportive for me. And then talking to me through each of the different stops was definitely really, really helpful. So first thing that we did was Sananga.
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So that is eye drops in the eyes and it is a beautiful, beautiful process and Lua always puts on amazing music so I can hear. So I would love to hear from you because I can talk about my experience, but also for you, like what's your favorite thing when it comes to just experiencing somebody else's transition and transformation and awakening.
My favorite thing is to witness vulnerability. Love that. Because when I see someone vulnerable in a space that they haven't been before and they're in full trust of the guidance and they're just like, I'm here, like I'm down, let's go. It helps me to be more vulnerable. It helps me to accept myself more. Cause I feel like it's a difficult thing to be vulnerable, to trust someone else. And I honor that so deeply.
because I have not felt safe in spaces before. So for me that safety is so important that when I see someone like that fully in trust of their experience of the medicine and of the space just makes me more humble. That's what a word that comes through. That's why I love cumble. That's why when someone calls me like you like, hey, I'm feeling called a cumblecito. It's like I honor that so deeply, so deeply because it's not for everyone.
So if you have that calling is because you're willing to be vulnerable. And I honor that. And you're willing to go through the discomfort. You're willing to cleanse your gut. And when you send me a message, I'm like, hey, Sarita, remember that three days before to get on the diet. And then you're like, yeah, girl, I'm doing raw vegan. I decided that's it. It's happening. And I was like, that's my love language. I'm like, yeah, it's someone that takes it really seriously.
And then when I witnessed that, it makes me so humbled by this work, so humbled that I think it's very important to, when you go to a psychedelic experience like you, like, I haven't had a full psychedelic experience yet. Like, wow, we're going to introduce Sarita to this world. The fact that we cleanse, we showed up for the hard work, the letting go. And I want to hear.
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that part of you first because it was so profound your process on letting go with the Sananga and the Hape even before get to the Kumbul to once you were there purging and being uncomfortable you were so connected to your intention and that's that's what's the work because and then when you get to do the psychedelic experience and we get to like whoa look at this you are more centered in humility you're more centered in
Okay, this is sacred work. Now, how do I get this sacred work and bring it to everything I do moving forward? How do I integrate that to my life, to my community, into my path? So, humility is my favorite part and vulnerability for sure.
That's beautiful. And that reminds me too, that the ceremony, the process actually really starts before I step into the angel palace. You're right. Cause I was doing the raw vegan diet to cleanse my temple before even receiving the medicine. So the intention really, so I can share that with you is my intention because I lived in San Diego for 20 years and now I'm embarking on this nomadic journey, which is a very, very big transition. If you've ever been through a big transition, moving homes, if someone
close to you passes away if like just something really uproots your everyday and you change. It's something that a lot of people don't necessarily talk about. Breakups, things like that. And so I was going through a process before coming into the ceremony where I was quite literally grieving the parts of me, the parts of things that I felt like weren't working out or hadn't worked out. And I was reflecting on my last 20 years in San Diego with all the things that I've done.
careers, relationships, moves, all the things. And so I was almost grieving the parts of me that potentially had not worked out to the place that I thought they would, maybe when I first came to San Diego, letting go of relationships and friendships and all the things. And so it was almost though I was grieving the disappointment of all of that. And it was a big process that I went through. purged a lot of tears. And so when I came to the Angel Palace here, I said,
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One of the big things that I really wanted to let go of was the old version of me that was still holding on or crave to hold on to those things. That version of me that was holding on to all of that, which wouldn't fully allow me to step into my, my future self, my like next step, my next chapter. And so I was sharing with you after I did Sonanga, cause it was very prevalent right away when I set that intention. That's the beauty of intentions is that the.
energies around you, your guides, universe, all the things definitely will be in, uh, in the congruency with you to help, you know, make that happen. And so after doing the Sananga, the eye drops, uh, what I had envisioned because Lua led me through some amazing affirmations. One of the things that I noticed, um, in a vision that came to me was me, or old self, I should say was
passing off this baton to new self and new self grabbed it and started to walk away. Old self started to cry and be upset and in this space where they didn't want to let go of new self. And so new self came back to old self and gave embraced and in that moment I remember feeling a sense of heartache for both of us.
like the heartbreak between the two of us, which is essentially me hugging myself and new self said to old self, I've got this from here. Like you can let go. So that was one of the first kind of images that I saw and having my combo that really helped with that. And how was that when I shared that with you?
I love that because that's really what healing is about is to collect these parts of ourselves these pieces of our soul that gets stuck in the past that felt some trauma or pain and bringing all these pieces together integration is to be whole so when we want to get out of a part of ourselves I don't like that part of myself I don't like that I'm I have anger or that I have
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Resentment about that thing and we want to forget about it, but avoiding it is just going to create a leak in your path So the path of healing is to bring that in and then bring them all together And I love that you got to it to notice that wow She doesn't want to let go there is a rite of passage that is required for us to transition to a place and there's many ways of rite of passage and now that's the rite of passion that we're connected to
These are warrior medicines. It's a rite of passage. Enter as a warrior to stand for what you know is for you so that all these parts be shown to you for you to be able to do the work.
I love the image of the warrior. remember that coming forth the first time I did the session with you or the group session, you started talking about the warrior and I never really thought about the warrior in that essence, like a spiritual warrior and going through and yes, you're right. These are warrior medicines. These are medicines that have been used for centuries at this point and initiations. So having them be accessible to us here in present days is absolutely beautiful. I really love it.
I was sharing with you how the warrior is what I believe is and I'm an Aries as you all know, because I constantly talk about astrology in this podcast. But a warrior is basically stands. What do I stand for? What does Sarita stand for? What is it that I fight for? And that was really important to me as I went through this session and I started thinking about the whole warrior archetype when I came here in October. And so it's been with me this entire time.
especially as I step into this next chapter. So the Sananga was beautiful because that was just the commencement of me realizing that there was like this old self and new self that was happening. So when I did hape, which I do have to tell you is not my favorite thing, but I'm developing a better relationship with it. It's one of those things. just a reminder, hape is tobacco and it is taken in through the nose. And so it's a very
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um, very intense experience. It's a very masculine energy. And so my intention, of course, throughout the whole process, throughout the whole day was to let go of old self, right? And I realized that along the way during the process through everything, I started to have so much more compassion for her. It was like, I kind of came into the
before I started, before I came here, was kinda like I almost felt like she was a weight, like she's a pain in the ass, like get her off that playing field, I was talking about this in one of my journal entries where I was saying like I was seeing her as like one of the players on a playing field, let's say like soccer, right? So she's playing on the playing field and it's kinda like when is she gonna get off the field already, you know? Like just bench her, you know? And when I started going through like the different...
steps of the day I realized how much more compassion I had for her because it was like no like lovingly tell her like it's it's my time now it's it's your time to be my cheerleader you can sit on the bench and cheer for me for the rest of my life we can dance together it'll be amazing and now I got this going into hape after you facilitated the hape to me I could literally feel tension on my
upper back and my neck and it felt as though that this entity, the spirit was going to exit my body. But it was very fascinating how I was resisting it, resisting it, resisting it. It was like when I was crying, it was like, I'm sorry, I'm embracing her and trying to keep her there. So it was through my hape that I realized.
that it was a dual relationship of us both holding on. Where before I was thinking, I just wanna get rid of her, like, you I can do this, this is easy, let me just let her go, right? But then I realized through my hape that it was like simultaneously both of us holding on together at the same time. So it was a process for me through that, that I started to acknowledge that.
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That's powerful.
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Both of us were holding on, so there was more that needed to be done. And of course, thank goodness we had combo and we had the psychedelic journey ceremony to really complete everything. But Hop Eight, like I said, I'm warming up to it and getting better at enjoying the process and what it provides to me. But it was because of that session that I realized, okay, there's more complicated layers than I thought there was. And I really had set the intention to feel into my body.
to release that. So there was some purging that happened a little bit with Hapé. It's very minimal for me. But how was that when I shared that with you in regards to like, I am really holding on and I didn't realize I'm doing this.
So, JAPÉ, I had a Colombian teacher that told me that JAPÉ is the medicine that teaches you how to breathe in the moments of chaos. When you breathe in the moments of chaos, you get to sit back because then like we play one part, my God, I'm letting my old self drive my car, right? Your body is a car, you're driving and...
Totally, I can see that.
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You're letting their old self drive and all your thoughts are coming from those fears from the past and those things. And then you have your embodiment, your highest self. And then you have like, my God, but I have all this potential. but I want to do all these things. but I want to go to all these places. And then you have the sense of self. Which is when you breathe and you're in calm and meditation and flow state. And then you get to see those parts.
from your own guardian. like to say be your own guardian when we're in combo body bliss. That's why we're training to be guardians because these are the medicines that you train to hold space for yourself and you also learn how to receive support because that's a big piece of healing is support. Some things we get to heal by ourselves. Other things we need to heal from support.
And support can be a medicine that we're approaching. Support can be a protection or a person that's offering whatever modality that they can support you. The co-regulation is important. And then you co-regulate and then you see both parts. So you got to see both parts now. Now you're like, okay, I have a full picture of the problem.
I love that.
And you get to take responsibility for both parts more from an adult perspective and let the inner child be held instead of ignored because that's what the part wants. Our old self wants to be integrated, to dance, to cheer you, to play, to express, to do what she really wanted to do. And then the old self gets to be that mature adult that takes her with you.
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and go and have your magical life.
Yes. I love that. Yeah, the inner child healing. Cause essentially that's what I feel like my old self has been. It has been this accumulation of everything. Like I talk about the subconscious mind here in this podcast quite a bit and how it's fully developed by the age of seven. And so that's how I feel like I have been old self was a accumulation of all the, of all the things.
which includes childlike self. And you made me think about this, like almost like a mother daughter relationship, like new self is kind of the new matriarch and the kind of in the position saying like, it's okay, you're fine. You're gonna be with me along this journey, but I get to be the one that gets to steer this ship now or drive this car.
pairing or re-parenting yourself. Right. And that's the medicine brings a special thing too. That's why it's not for everybody. Plum medicine psychedelics is not for everybody, but he's for a calling. We have a calling. The curiosity is a calling. It was my calling too. And then we get to also
do this work with spirits and then it becomes very spiritual your problems your problems are spiritual problems and then you start connecting with the spiritual aspect because these spirits like tobacco that's why we call the father tobacco it's like a archetype that brings this reparenting energy for us isn't it magical
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So magical. let's jump into combo. And like I said, this was my second time doing combo or technically fourth time doing combo because I did three times when I was here in October. it's my fourth time. So I don't know if you can see that, I have cameras in the way or the microphone, but you can probably see, um, I'll post a picture on my social media media at Sarita wellness. You'll definitely see a photo of my dots.
So cute.
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So again, just as a reminder, a combo is frog medicine and how it is administered is through little burn marks on the skin and then the medicine is administered on the open burns and then you basically go through a process which when you are going through it feels like hours and hours but essentially it's what like 15, 15, 20 minutes or so.
Yeah, it's between 15 to 30 minutes. I would say 20 minutes. You're good to go.
Yeah. And so I have to say that this time was so fucking hard for me. It was so hard. When Lua asked me yesterday, why was it so hard? And so was reflecting on it. And when I first came to Angel Palace, I didn't know what I was getting into. And so there was kind of a, I didn't know necessarily what intentions I had. What ended up coming into fruition was a little bit different than my intention, which was beautiful.
and amazing and helped support me in that. And so it was more along the lines of like in my head. I was a lot more in my head the last time I was here and possibly because I was new at it and there were other people around me that had already gone through it. So my comparisonitis definitely stepped in. Am I doing this right? Am I blah, blah, blah? And even though like I had a beautiful experience at that time, this time
I made the decision right off the bat that I was going to be in body and there was not going to be any head involved. Like mind shut down, body is talking. And also too, my intention was so much more specific and so much more grandiose, I think, than the first time that I was here. think also too, besides you, I was the only person doing the combo and the energetically, was just all the attention was on me, like guides, all the things. So there weren't different energies supporting and helping and all that.
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So it was me solo. So it was just like the spotlights on Sarita. So it felt like it felt like it was, it was a lot more challenging in that respect. And then also just reminding myself like the last 20 years, like letting go and releasing old self. And so I had a really, really challenging time. And I remember maybe about three quarters of the way through it. I was like, I do not want to do this anymore. And the minute that happened, the minute I said that in my mind, you came in and you said,
How about some of that hop in? was like, damn it. Okay. In that moment when I said, I don't want to do this anymore. That's when the hop came in.
I love that moment because right before you said the other time when you offered me hape because it's not all the time that we offer hape and combo it's very specific reasons and you remember you said hey that was actually very helpful in the last one so I'm open to that I'm like okay okay
I remember I did I created the invitation before the combo even started so I said Lua I'm open to that I totally forgot about that but I'm grateful because the hape definitely during the combo process supported me in getting over that last hump and I purged as soon as the medicine came on I think I purged within I would say like two minutes which was a lot quicker than the first time that I did it I had to assist my purge pretty much those
three days that I was here in October, but this one, just, it came up naturally. That just demonstrates that I've created a relationship with Combo. And then also that like, I'm in a place where I'm trusting my body and knowing that my body can steer the ship and knows what it needs in that time. So I love that.
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love that because it is a relationship. Love that, Sarita, because it is a relationship that we get to build with these medicines. You can't just show up with any of the medicines, especially cambo and just like, yeah, I'm here to purge this whole bucket, because it's not even about that. It's nice that you got to do the body bliss first. You got to really go deep in this medicine, understand the process. We did it three times following the traditional cycle.
for now to be able to like, okay, I know this, I know why I'm here, I'm gonna be my own guardian, embrace the process. And you got to have a really deep per- And that was because you prepare yourself mentally and also physically with the prep diet. You came with a clear intention and you already have a relationship with the medicine and the way that you have integrated all the body bliss lifestyle and how you eat.
Yes, I did.
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through the last six months allows your vessel to be a lot more ready to release what needs to come out.
That makes so much sense, it really does. And the purge was deep this time. It was really intense. was saying that was the other part of it being hard was post combo. felt like I'd run a marathon. Like my muscles were so sore.
My leg muscles were so sore and I felt like I had just lifted a bunch of weights, but I hadn't even done anything like that. But it was so deep that my throat was sore, my back was sore, but it was sore in a good way. It wasn't like a feeling of like, it was too much. It was just more like after you do go to the gym or workout or you go do that exercise, like you feel relieved and like, like relieved of stress. So yeah, the purge was exceptionally deep this time.
And I'm so grateful because like you were saying, the contributing factors of me putting in a lot of effort into preparing for it. And then also the fact that I set this really intense intention, which is again, here to support you in regards to this major transition that can potentially happen in your life and what's happening in my life. So love that. Love that combo is definitely, I would recommend that to somebody that is going through.
a time where they feel like they need that additional support like you were saying, we can get the healing on our own, but having that facilitated help and that extra those tools and resources to help us just get to that next step really, really supportive. So that's why I'm really happy that I returned back to do combo all over again.
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And then this feeling that you feel after is truly because your liver, your kidneys, your intestines have been through a major surgery. That's why you feel so tired after because it's a lot of work that we get to do. That's why we call combo a miraculous medicine because there's no other way you get to fully go through such an intense detoxification process so quickly.
So Viva Cumbocito! Thank you Casarita for releasing old vile things that didn't need to be there anymore. And that's why I call the Cumbobody Bliss, because then it comes with bliss.
literally had the best sleep of my life last night post combo and my psychedelic medicine journey. It was amazing. Everything was so supportive. Speaking of that, let's jump into my first psychedelic ceremonial experience. Like first psychedelic experience actually in general. So I just want to say right off the bat, which I reflected to you, like there was nobody else that I would have wanted to go through this with.
to help support me than you Lua, like you were and are the best person. So I'm so happy and grateful that I've had my experience here and that I felt really safe, especially trying something brand new. So like I said, the combo and the hape and sananga, I've gone through that before. Granted, when I was here in October, that was my first time and just feeling the feels with.
Everyone here in a community was a great way to integrate myself into that space and newness. And so when she offered me, Hey, on top of doing combo and hape and sanango, would you like to do something in addition? So I said, heck yeah, let's do it. I'm always an act now, think later type of girl. So it worked out perfectly that I said yes. And what I really loved about kind of the setup of this was we were setting the intention. there was.
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The whole thing was very intentional, which I love. So it was like setting the intention, talking about it. And it was like this gradual like workup. And then the combo is basically doing all the release work. And so the psychedelic experience was basically to say, okay, we've, we've done the release work now. What is it that I get to receive next for my next chapter? So I love how that was just this whole integration and whole like cycle. And I loved how you explained it with my.
with my psychedelic experience. if you want to talk about that for a moment, I think that the combination of the two is just so supportive to me.
Yeah, and it was really based on your intention. Hey, I'm in this huge transition of my life. I'm about to be nomad and travel and don't know what's going to happen. Like that's such a, such a special place. And I know cause I moved all the way from Brazil and it was so hard. So I really resonate with these transitional spaces and the amount of letting go that it requires and also the amount of expansion. So being able to
go through this process, like, okay, how can we provide an experience that Sarita gets to surrender and receive her guides, her ancestors, God, really tune in with her true divine assignment. And that's why before I was asking about, what do you like to do, Sarita? You're so creative. You're so magical. You have your podcast. It's so awesome. You speak. You do all kinds of cool stuff. What's next for you now and how you want to move forward?
And that's such a great intention to be able to have in a psychedelic experience because that way you're prepared to receive what came through with big reverence to now move forward and like, whoa, now I have a treasure in my heart of what I got to experience. So we love to hear from you, Sarita. How was your first psychedelic experience, which is such an honor for me. I honor that so much. Oh, my God. I wish I had that. So I love that we got to share that space.
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Yes. And I want to say before I jump into sharing the psychedelic experience, what I really, really appreciate is that you are also a business owner and you're also facilitating coach and do the things that I am getting myself into offering coaching packages and not just the podcast, but also providing that space for people to come to talk about manifestation and help them manifest the life that they really, really desire. And so sitting down with me and getting a lot more clear about
You know, what, what are the different facets and parts of me that are important? What, what defines Sarita? Just going back to that warrior, right? What does Sarita stand for? What does, what do you stand for? And so you brought out the Metatron's cube form to me and we sat down and what is, what is Sarita's brand? Not just business brand, right? But what does Sarita stand for? And so we went through a bunch of different things between art and dance and also gardening and
the Metatron's cure.
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outdoors and romance and aesthetics, beauty, healthy eating. So all these different components that you can see from me, from my social media at Sarita Wellness, like this is who I am as a person. And so I had said to Lua, like one of the things that I'm learning as I'm getting a lot more defined in my coaching business and my podcast is, is I want to integrate different parts of me that I feel sometimes
have been put on the sidelines. And so that was an intention going into the psychedelic journey was just really receiving what I needed to get from me defining and declaring like, these are the things that I'm a little bit unclear about that I feel.
disconnected from, but yet they're still a part of me and that I want to integrate into my everyday and show up so people can see all these beautiful facets of me. So that being said, I had an amazing psychedelic experience. And the first thing that I said after I was coming back and still in the medicine and coming back in a little bit lightheaded, but Lua did a voice note of it so she could capture what it was that I was talking about. that way
I wouldn't forget some of the things, but the first thing I said that was so unique to me because it's something that I want to bring more back into my life is my artwork, being an artist. my artwork right now is this podcast, but there are other parts of me that have been kind of put on the back burner, like being a painter. was
Here I am doing my little crochet. You know, parts of me that I think creative, right? I'm a moon in Pisces, so creativity is very important to me. And so the first thing I said to Lua when I came back was, it was an artistic expression. It was art. And I mean like art in the 10th D. Like it was so amazing experiencing these different things. So let me just tell you a little reflection.
Speaker 1 (39:39.214)
on some of the experiences that I had during my ceremonial experience here. And so some of the things that I remember really, really clearly was just, I felt like I was going through like a virtual reality in essence. So they had the mat laying out. I was on literally a little magic carpet, like laying down, had my little eye mask on and the music was perfect volume. And it was an amazing playlist by the way, like cult, like just put together perfectly. And so I slipped into, into this
reality and it was as though the artwork was being created as I was going. So it was like I was slipping into these different like rooms almost like in this virtual reality and as I was going into these different rooms the artwork was being created as I went and it was so cool it just emulates the life that I'm about to embark on right? I'm gonna be literally building my life as I go.
And it was so beautiful. remember being in the Amazon rainforest, one of the first visions that I had. And I was going over my magic carpet, like levitating over the rainforest, which was so cool. And then I slipped. remember going into like the ocean, which was, and I even remember saying out loud, like, wow. I remember saying it super slow. Like, wow. As I'm slipping into the ocean and all these beautiful ocean plants are like coming together and these fish are swimming around.
There was another scene that I remember where I slipped into a position where I was, must have been maybe a leader of some, a tribal leader of some kind. And I was in these canoes or boats that were made out of hand and all these people were ready for some kind of combat of some sort. And we had our shields and our swords. I think it was my ancestors, honestly. And we were very, very, very dark, but we were sea.
people. So we were on the ocean and I remember saying, I knew it. Like I knew because I am a huge person that loves water, like I love water. Like I have to have water every single day, meaning like I need a bathtub or a pool or the ocean or something like that. And it was just reconfirming to me like, wow, like I come from lineage of people that are around water. And the most fun one that we were laughing at a little earlier before the podcast is Lua had said with her
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experience that she met her intergalactic family, right? Your galactic family out there. And I feel like I met my galactic family and it was not whom I thought it would be, but it was a bunch of droids. It was so cute. I fell into this droid party. Literally it was a droid festival. We were all on the sand and all these droids, like just think of Star Wars, right? All these droids were just like...
dancing and having a good time and I was I think I was a joy that was hanging in a window just Overlooking and seeing everything but I was still enjoying the party and hanging out and dancing. It was so cool I was like, my god and the minute I went into that I had the sense like this is my family I was like, wow, this is this is so close my family another vision I had was something pretty significant where I met Buddha so not necessarily like
the Buddha like Siddhartha Buddha, but Buddha in a rainforest like a huge stone. I mean, it was ginormous and I don't know if there's one that exists that it was that big and it was chiseled beautifully. It looked like it was like onyx and I was facing Buddha and there was a woman in a headdress facing this way and a man in a headdress facing that way. And so I was connecting with Buddha and Buddha ended up melting like into me.
And like I said, most of the things I was experiencing was like I melted into into the scene. Speaking of melting, I had one of the visions, was odd but fun. I was ice cream, but I was going through a cone and like I was melting and I went on this. I think it was this carpet, honestly, like onto the carpet. I was melting into the carpet like I was ice cream. And I remember saying out loud, I'm melting.
Ha ha ha!
Speaker 1 (43:48.056)
So those are the ones that I can remember. again, like everything was just so, so vivid and colorful. I did also want to share, and I did share this with you, but every single scene that I went into, I felt like my hands, because I was laying in Savasana. So I was just laying with my legs out and my arms out like this. I like doing that, having open palms, because it's like, what can I receive?
It was fascinating. Every single scene that I was in, every single, you know, part artistry, I had a different tool in my hands. I remember having balls, like these, like crystal balls in my hand. I remember having a mallet of some kind, the scene where I was maybe the warrior king or queen. I was holding a staff.
There was another scene where I was holding something smaller, something was being placed in my hand. So every single like little experience I was having, there was something energetically in my hands that I was holding. And one more thing that I thought was so cool was that throughout the whole entire thing, I was conscious of my body, right? So was conscious and aware that I had my body. And then I would slip into these like scenes.
And what was happening for me was in the experience itself, I knew like my eyes were closed because I had the eye mask, but also it felt like my eyes were open in the experience, in the journey. So I thought a couple of times like, are my eyes really open? Like my actual physical eyes actually open? Or is it just my like...
Spiritual eyes are open. knew like my third eye was being really open and I just remember my eyes just being like this because I was taking in so much visual experience and then I remember my head starting to hurt because I was just taking in so much at one time. How much can I get in? And then I'd have a moment where I'm like, are my eyes open or are my eyes closed? And then I'd like actually like blink and it would clear the screen.
Speaker 1 (45:53.408)
And I realized, I was like, no, no, no, don't clear the screen every time you blink. Don't blink, don't blink. So needless to say, it was the visual experience and then just reminding myself like I'm safe. A couple of times when there were like potentially some instances that were really dark and black and I had these forms coming at me. I just had to remind myself I'm safe. I'm here to experience this. This is for me and they can't harm me.
Don't blink.
Speaker 1 (46:21.142)
I didn't feel anything on safety or fear or anything like that. I was an artistic experience and I was really bummed when it started to kind of wind down. I knew because like my visions weren't as clear. And I remember asking like, how long are we at? And Taj said, we're about it a little over an hour. I was like, that makes sense. And I was like, I don't want it to end. So yes, that was just the amazing, amazing experience that I had with that psychedelic journey.
I'm so happy to hear that Sarita. What an incredible journey. You know, this the role as a sitter is also so special because it's different than when we're in the Kambul. There's a different attention the way that we're supporting the process. But this kind of psychedelic experience that you're just laying down in your journey and then we're playing the role of the sitter and it's such a beautiful process too because as you're there in your journey and then you're like, wow.
Yeah.
And I'm just like, have no idea what she's seeing, but I love that. I love that I get to witness that and just being aware of any moment. So we're just having our meditation and chilling and enjoying the music, enjoying the party and also praying for the space to be safe, to be protected, holding that pillar of light.
for Sarita to go to only the places that she's meant to go and to not get lost in the sauce and to come back with this sense of, wow, I get to be me in this life. I got to see my ancestors. I got to see my galactic family. I get to see the enormous mystery of the divine and the spiritual realm. Then now you get to come back and fully embody yourself. Now, you know that you're so unique.
Speaker 2 (48:07.33)
We all so unique. We keep comparing ourselves. Like the world is so about the grass is greener on the other side when actually everyone you are so unique and you have a big, big reason why you're here and you have all your ancestors and your celestial beings cheering you up and supporting you to walk your highest path and to follow God in this path. And I think that faith is what really brings change because now what you saw Sarita
Nobody can take away from you. Right. It's forever your own wisdom.
Yes, I was reflecting to you this morning after having a really good night's sleep and kind of thinking about this that I feel so much more connected now. Not that I didn't, but like I just feel so much more connected. And one of the questions Zua asked me last night as I was coming back and still a little delirious and hungry and exhausted and all the things, aren't you so grateful to be you? And I said, heck yeah. Like I'm so fucking unique. Like, wow. Like just being able to
just go through this process, see those things and feel connected. was just exactly what I, what I needed to experience. And that's what the intention was really, what can I receive in this? What clarity can I get? And there's a reason why these types of medicines are being used because it is, it is essentially deeper work and therapy in a fraction of a time that somebody else would take maybe longer. And I'm not downplaying therapy by any means, traditional therapy, because it's very important.
But this is just a such a really great way to go deeper. And I was very open to that. I think that's the other thing too. I'm sure that you've had people come through your doors that aren't necessarily like as open to receiving some of the magic that potentially they could and maybe they have to do it a couple of times. But I was very intentional about like, I am open to.
Speaker 1 (50:01.344)
receiving what it is that I need to for this. mean, I literally cleaned my vessel, you know, before combo, during combo, like all that. So, I feel like it was just everything. The music was fire. Like it just, the playlist was fire and the experience was just an artistic expression. Everything that I went through, I was like, wow, this is for me. This is for just not for anybody else. This is for me. It's my, my own personal.
journey here and it was amazing and coming back from that was, I didn't want it to end, but at the same time, like I always have that with me, right? Like I always have that, those parts of me. And now going back to what I was saying, feeling so much more connected is those spirits, those entities do exist. Like they exist in this astral realm. And I was able to travel there and see that and experience that.
Oftentimes we get really wrapped up in our own little like world and not even our work and our family. get wrapped up in just like, this is us. We're the only person that's going through this or entity that's going through this experience and mad and frustrated or blah, blah. And that's not the case. They're really set the bar at a different place for me realizing, wow, I'm part of something so much more big than I even realize. Cause I.
was thinking, I think as humans, we have a very linear mind to begin with. So it's challenging for us to wrap our like human P brain around like these things. Like we try to, and I think that's what I love about these types of medicines, the psychedelic journey that I did was it allowed me to expand and understand a little bit better that not only am I a part of something more big, but also that like,
My power and potential is so much more profound that I even would give myself credit for.
Speaker 2 (51:58.606)
And that's the path of integration. That's why we have to take these very intentional because now nobody can take away from you but you can easily just poof and get back to your own little human brain and the same worries and concerns and easily not take out the privilege, right? We take privilege for granted. So now when you take when you are intentional
and you get all these messages that really change who you are. Now is what we were talking before, which is for me is what I work with my clients. It's like, what's your artistry? What's your full expression? Because that's your uniqueness. And then your service, your business and everything that you do just be packaged in a way that that's what God wants you to do and to serve the people that you are meant to serve.
And we got so caught up in comparison and trying to do that thing and trying to do this other thing and all these parts of me. And I love that you got to have an artistic expression of what God really is so that now you embody your creative expression and get to be a healing artist in the world.
I love that. Lua, thank you so much for supporting me and facilitating and being my guide. I'm so happy that I returned back again. Like it's just been such a pleasure and beautiful experience. And we topped the last one. I feel the warrior spirit. I feel the warrior spirit.
Again, Lua, thank you so much. I'm so happy that this turned out the way that it did. This has been a dream of mine to do these in-person podcasts like my traveling talk because it feels like a talk show. And I'm so grateful that we were able to make the magic happen in so many different ways. I love it. Making magic happen at the Angel Palace. Quantum leaping. Thank you so much. And as always, keep being the amazing you that you are. We'll see you next time.
